...about everything!
Career...Child Life Specialist? Therapist?
Continue my education...Grad school?
Dating? or just Good friends?
Should I settle for a B in English?
Where do I work?
Summer
Do I really need to go grocery shopping? (okay the answer is yes...)
Am I where I'm supposed to be?
Internship...when? where? with whom?
Mission?
How do I really feel?
What to do, what to do, what to do?? I'm tired of making decisions that will have a huge impact on my life. Can't the plan I made three years ago stay in affect? Why do I have to have curve balls thrown at me? As Tevye says to God in Fiddler on the Roof "Sometimes I think, when it gets too quiet up there, You say to Yourself, "What kind of mischief can I play on My friend Tevye?" Hmmm...what can I do to tip Hannah's little world upside down? Well it's really not that hard actually. Just send a little thought into my head that causes me to completely re-think my life.
I'm not complaining...Just contemplating. I go on LONG walks. I THINK( and I'm getting tired) I TALK with friends, family....and then the Bishop randomly calls me into his office...How does he even know? I don't say anything. I guess the Lord really is looking out for me. And that is a COMFORTING thought. So although He is rocking my world a little He's still got my back.
And then when I'm not doing all that I try to focus on school since there is 3 weeks left and I've got a huge to do list. It will be over soon...bittersweet.
Indecision...
Career...Child Life Specialist? Therapist?
Continue my education...Grad school?
Dating? or just Good friends?
Should I settle for a B in English?
Where do I work?
Summer
Do I really need to go grocery shopping? (okay the answer is yes...)
Am I where I'm supposed to be?
Internship...when? where? with whom?
Mission?
How do I really feel?
What to do, what to do, what to do?? I'm tired of making decisions that will have a huge impact on my life. Can't the plan I made three years ago stay in affect? Why do I have to have curve balls thrown at me? As Tevye says to God in Fiddler on the Roof "Sometimes I think, when it gets too quiet up there, You say to Yourself, "What kind of mischief can I play on My friend Tevye?" Hmmm...what can I do to tip Hannah's little world upside down? Well it's really not that hard actually. Just send a little thought into my head that causes me to completely re-think my life.
I'm not complaining...Just contemplating. I go on LONG walks. I THINK( and I'm getting tired) I TALK with friends, family....and then the Bishop randomly calls me into his office...How does he even know? I don't say anything. I guess the Lord really is looking out for me. And that is a COMFORTING thought. So although He is rocking my world a little He's still got my back.
And then when I'm not doing all that I try to focus on school since there is 3 weeks left and I've got a huge to do list. It will be over soon...bittersweet.
Indecision...
1 comment:
It only gets worse as you get older. My mission, although hard, was the best time of my life because you knew everyday what you were supposed to be doing. No bills, no school, no dating. It was easy even though it was so hard. I am not telling you to go on a mission, I am saying that it was the best not-worry-about-myself time of my life. You need one of those. Backpack Europe, spend weekends searching out hot springs, come to Boise to hang out with cousins. Whatever YOU need to just get away from it for a little while.
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